lala @ Thursday, August 25, 2005
i just realised i havent been caring much for my sis.. ever since i dunno when.. we're still on quite good terms, talking terms at least, now and then, but smhow i feel i dunno her so well anymore.. maybe its e diff environments dats changing e both of us, maybe cos shes in a mix sch and im fr a girls sch, maybe cos this is e rebellious period shes gg thru, maybe i havent been spending much time wif her..
recently we had a quarrel, not exactly a quarrel, a cold war rather.. havent been talking for at 4 daes, including today.. i try to talk nicely to her, but she jus gives me e cold shoulder.. of cos i became pissed la, i mean i talk to yoo nicely, yoo give me stupid attitude.. so yep its e action-reaction force at work, thanks to newton.. so nothing comes out of it..
and im worried abt her results also.. everytime we come to this topic, she saes im irritating, and brushes me off.. i also dun wan to pressurise her or irritate her, but her results are reallie worrying la.. shes like ranked 200 or so out of 250+ ppl.. and she hasn told my mummy yet, i also duno whether i should chap in and tell my mum.. but i noe my sis is gg to cont ignoring me if i do that. my parents are like so cooped up in their own stuff, and i dun wanna stress my mum also. shes facing some problems at work, so yep.. back to me again.
now im preparing for prelims and shes preparing for her exams as well (i hope), i dun haf e time to sit down and talk to her seriously.. she isn even willing to talk in e first place.. argh. bother.
her mood is so everchanging like e weather.. i dunno wad else to compare though.. oh e chameleon! .. anyways, smtimes when shes in a good mood, shell be nice to yoo, joke and do silly things and fool ard wif yoo.. but when shes in a bad mood, its hell.. i forgot whether ive been through this phase.. but if i were like this before, it would have been tortorous for my mum..
i do hope shell become sensible SOON enough, and do smth abt her grades.. i noe shes trying hard, but maybe not hard enough..
may e fleas of a thousand camels and dogs and wadeva infest e ass of assholes out there who try to distract her or kachau her, and may their arms grow too short to scratch their ass.. (adapted from woei lin's msg..) haha. wad am i talking abt..
argh. smbody save me.
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